Tuesday, 16 December 2008
Guess this is my retribution for playing too much.. Played 30 hours of ffx in 3 days. This is wrong right?
Went out with yz sr pat and monkey today. Ate long john. Sinful food. After that we went to play dota. Nth much to say here.
And now i'm back in my room thinking.. Why... Am... I... Like... This..? Maybe.. I should go out more? Interact more with people? Haven't felt this down since back then.. ya down 3 posts.
Think its just a case of over-gaming.. Somehow i can forsee that the ending of FFX is going to impact my emotions greatly for the next few weeks.
Needs more outing. Kek if by some chance you are reading this... Please organise outing. Yes. Even without Marc. Cos very soon.. You will be entering NS and my "Friends that i am very comfortable around with and can act most myself" friends will be so pathetically little that i think i could count them with my fingers.. Let me see.. Sean, Sy, Kb, Vinc, Jar...??? Yup 5.
I am abit (U) after hearing what you said that day.. Abit.. Ya really. I was really thinking this chapter of my life would close beautifully and stuff but.. Guess its just me =) I should.. Give it some time.. If everything stays this way.. Yup I will move on =)
Yes yes i know i am weird tonight.. But what can i do? It's not like i'm like this everytime.. Just hear me ramble abit more k? I have so many things to say yet.. No one to say to.
I feel so.. Lonely.. In this cold world of mine. Real happiness is really rare ya? It's okay.. really. Cause it's just me.. Since the beginning i have been alone. Easily forgotten. Sometimes i think i am just a burden to everyone. Someone tell me i am important and irreplacible.. please? Can someone listen to my heart? Hear my true words?? I don't want to be alone!!!
nuff said. Emo night is Emotional. I am Rayz. This is my story.
My Life, My Adventure.
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